Heartbreak.......part 1

They say talking about your inner most pain helps you move on, they say having a good cry helps ease the pain, they say tru love always conquers BUT I SIT HERE WITH THE SONG BELOW ON REPEAT ........

"Why Does It Hurt So Bad" by Whitney Houston

Why does it hurt so bad Why do I feel so sad Thought I was over you But I keep crying When I don't love you So why does it hurt so bad I thought I had let you go So why does it hurt me so I gotta get you outta my head It hurts so bad Oh it hurts so bad baby

You might be wondering why the sadness but it could help if I started from the beginning. Well this is going to be one hell of a ride.

MR GEE

So a good few years ago, I met Mr Gee. From the moment I met Mr Gee I knew 1 would fall truly madly deeply with this man. We met at a bridal party, you see. I walked in the party and our eyes met. Yes Mr Gee could not keep his eyes of me. I am not that girl that makes the whole room turn when I walk in. Heads do not turn but I do ok. lol. I am an average kinda gal, big tits and small ass and well definitely not build like an African goddess that you see on magazines. It was like we knew each other but we had only just met. I knew I had to speak to him before the night was over.

At some point during the night our paths crossed. We talked, and we exchanged numbers. I was left with butterflies in my stomach, the smile on my face said it all and I knew in my heart of hearts I had found the one. You see prior to meeting Mr Gee I had given up on love. After a few heartbreaks I had decided yes I can date but never would I give my heart in full.

The following day after several texts back and forth we agreed to meet at another function. The man sat in the sun for hours just to watch me enjoy the day with my friends. He had brought me his favourite ice-cream and a Lucozade to cure the hangover. After the function we hanged out for a bit and we parted ways. The more we spoke I knew he was the one. The connection was so intense. You see i am not the typical African woman as I have stated earlier, I am opinionated and too independent according to other men , lol. But boy oh boy does the man know how to handle me. We spoke every night and one night he said he was coming to see me, only for him to call later and say I am no longer coming because he is scared of how he feels.

Anyhoo a few days later Mr Gee came to my place we shared a nice meal. Then we started kissing, and ohh my gosh the kiss was just what I had imagined. it was intense, passionate, emotional and had a level of desire that I had never experienced. This short encounter also showed me Mr Gee had this desire to taste every part of me and I can assure you every part that could be tasted was tasted and yes there was no penetration. I stopped it coz I felt I was losing myself. Mr Gee went on to dedicate the following song to me as that was how he was feeeling,

"Last Night" by Az Yet

Last night you were so into it You told me secrets that You've never told a soul You were so nervous and Yet oh so comfortable As we explored your image of love I drank your wine As you taste mine I kissed your lips You felt my body slip Into your soul I almost cried 'cause it was so beautiful Last night I was inside of you Last night While making love to you I saw the sun, the moon The mountains and the rivers I saw heaven when I made sweet love to you Last night, there was no planning it It was so special and So very innocent We talked of memories Our favorite fantasies As we explored our visions of love

We stopped then we tried to compose ourselves and the the conversation turned sour. Mr Gee uttered the words 'I do not want marriage or to have any more kids'. My world fell apart how can the man of my dreams not want to give me the very thing I so desperately want from him.

Let me log of for now coz the tears are now pouring down.................This is going to be hard to narrate but I have to try. Thats for now..

Carpe diem

lyfeofDelaz